AM SORRY
I am sorry for everything
For my suspicion and trust
For lightening and rain
For the sea billowing
For the whispers of lovers
For fulfillment and parting
For my life with you
And from you
And for your death in me
For the lunar eclipse
For the withered orchid
And the willow that can’t shade
For compassion and indifference
I am sorry for everything
Even for myself
In my heart
I will bury my question
Not my sorrow
For what happened
I say it clear
I am not innocent
Of shy gaze
Or daring stare
Of lies you believed
And my silences
I am sorry for the dew
On the unopened bud
For the quiver
And the virgin’s longing
For the choke in my throat
For my helplessness
For craving the abyss
For the bright dawn
I am sorry
For the fallen nest
For failure
For the tide that pulled me in
For the unwelcome embrace
For the tear that doesn’t mend
The morning that never comes
For every vow I feared to keep
And the goodness we kept from each other
Laila El-Sissi